week report 3

this week was all about real events taking place. we're 9 days out from the first snow of the year. it's been over two weeks since my final therapy appointment.

i feel unexpectedly great, as in: better than when i was doing the therapy. i feel some veil has lifted. the Techniques were making me unable to focus on my real problems (not having a job, feeling politically ineffectual, etc) due to playing with optional ones (reliving traumatic events, worrying about my abilities, etc).

i've gotten into a few spiral-shaped conversations with l.a. about therapy - they're unabashedly critical of it as a project, and i get into that viewpoint when we talk. this week when i'm doing chores i keep meditating on death & thinking: do i really want to spend extra minutes of my limited existence on (e.g.) pulling hair out of the drain? thinking about mental health feels a little like that right now.

my basil flourishes, my apartment freezes, my french press coffee turns out great every time. over the weekend i altered the sleeves & torso of a sweatshirt and am pretty happy with how it turned out! also, l&i went to an exhibit at the contemporary art exhibit this evening, and this afternoon i worked for several hours on my annotation contract and made $dog ass.

presents i would like: